Hey yo.
Lols.
Feeling very sian now. Lols.
Having headache too.
Very pain~ >.<
Just now quarrelled with my mum.
Lols. Sian. Didn't went to ahma house to have dinner.
No appetite.
Haiz. Totally not in the mood.
Just feel like lying somewhere & don't move.
Tomorrow got band,
need to wake up early again..

Labels: Moodless

Sometimes, i really wonder if i'm ever included..
Though we do have fun, but at times i really felt left out.
LOLs.
Like just being an extra there.
Being a housefly, flying around you guys & irritating you.
Sigh..
I don't know luhh. ..
& it seems like i've never done anything in my so far 14 years that can impress people.
Lols.
I don't even know what have i achieved..
It's contradicting lah.
I not a person who like to be in the spotlight.
YET, i don't like to be an ordinary person who is being kept in the dark..
-.-
Suddenly, my future seems so blur..
I think i'm lost..
Starting to fear i guess..
Starting not to know what exactly i'm studying for..
AHHHH! I'm feeling so annoyed & frustrated
Sighs...

I feel like pouring it out to someone..
But......

Mood : GRUMPY + MOODY

Labels: Contrast - Fear - Frustrated - LOST

Zzzzzzzz.
This is the first time i'm so angry until i cried for so long!
AHHHHHHHH!
Damn angry!
Feel like shouting currently!

Really don't like crying..
Is there other way for me to vent my anger?
Oh no..
My nose is so going to be blocked.
& my eyes are so going to be swollen..
Head pain..
HAIX..

Suddenly, don't feel like going to camp tomorrow..

Labels: WTH

WAHHH!
The insect bites are killing me.
Its' driving me crazy man.
Solely one hand i have already got 15 bites.
-.-
Just now went to see doctor.
The doctor gave me some anti-itch pill,
& cream.
After my long 14years, now then i know i have sensitive skin.
LOL.
I'm sensitive to dirty areas & insect bites.
My bites all looks like chicken pox siah..
~.~
Then now go out must wear long sleeves.
If not people see le will scare.
Worst is cannot scratch.. T.T
If scratch will leave scars..
My hand is very precious to me, so cannot scratch & leave any scars..
Ahhhhh~
Sian. Having another camp tomorrow..
Zzzzz. Don't feel like going.
Haven't pack anything for it yet..
Now feel like playing trumpet suddenly.
Like so long never touch already.
I wonder how's Thursday stock check..

Today's mood - GRUMPY.

Labels: Grumpiness - Itchiness

IT"S A GREAT EXPERIENCE!!!!!
Hahas. PLTC was quite okay. Fun luhh actually.
Did quite a number of pumpings.
But not as many as the previous batch one.
If want to compare, ours can say is very little.
Lols. So can imagine luhh.

Hmm, i LOVE my group very much!!!!!!
Once a respect group, FOREVER a respect group!
I love my group's mentors too!!
Hahas. They were cute luhh. Good too.
Overall, it's very good luhh.
I like lahs. HAahs.
Hope i would be selected.

Labels: GREAT experience=)

YEAH!
Finally the ''more important'' exams are over!
WOAH! Now can play like siao.
But at the same time, i felt empty.
Lols. Like nothing to do.
However, i'm also worried about my results.
Thursday is the results day.
OMG! Scare scare scare..

Sometimes, in the middle of the late night.
It sucks.
Lols! Random.
But, it's true.
When you've nothing to do, nothing to really worry about.
Nothing to let you occupy your mind - like memorising notes,
you get really lost.
& you'll start to think back, remembering the past.
Feel the pain once again.
& i'm one of the victim..
I hate to remember them.
But, it keep coming back.
The bitter memories are sucking my blood,
draining them off.
Though bitter, there were sweet ones too.
& were really sweet.

That was coming back,
& it's making me feeling uncomfortable.
It's hurting me again.
Bringing back my long lost sorrow..

Labels: BACK.

YOYO! Hahas.
Very long never post le.
Lols.
Hmm, this semester is a busy semester.
Didn't have tuition for the past 3weeks. ~.~

Finally, i passed my English !!
Woots. So happy can! =D
Other subjects still okay luhh.
Ohya, i want to talk about my PBL.
Hahas. It was a success!
& suddenly love my group.
Hahas. Group 8 forever! Lols.
Maybe because i got good team members. Lols.
But overall, it was fun & cool! Lols.

Okay, then follow by the yellow ribbon project.
Stayed overnight in school on Saturday & woke up damn freaking early the next day.
Actually, can say i only slept for like a few minutes..
Lols! That night, JiaHui, Rauzha, Korina, Karen & me was so energetic can.
We sat up in circle & started chatting.
We played the game-truth or dare. Lols.
Asked a lot of questions about Karen's truth.
& she revenged. Lols!
& i revealed my little secret that none of them actually know.
Heehee. =P
But it's still a secret ok! =)
After that, chat chat chat til around 3plus.
Then Korina & me start to feel a bit tired & decided to sleep.
The rest of them still continue to talk.
....
Then we were woken up.
Got to get ready and prepare to go to the prison.
Went there, rehearse one last time & sat in a shelter place & wait for our turn to 'perform'.
Met a lady called Ivy.
Okay, talks about her, really uh.. Cool.
She was damn cool.
She had a short hair, looks pretty, was somehow build up in a way & she is tall.
Most importantly, she is friendly & open. (as in she's not shy)
She mix well with us. Lols.
We took photos. & even exchanged email adds.
Lols. cool right ?!
Hahas. She was really very good.

After that thing, follow by the next week.
Stop Harm Start Heart.
Skipped tuition again. Lols.
We're going to record a instrumental piece.
OMG!? Hahas. Cannot believe it luhh.
But, to think of it, also quite cool uh. Hahas.

Next, 2days ago, i skipped tuition again.
=x. Went to suntec city for the IT Fair.
Bought a new notebook ! WOOTS!! Hahas.
My second one. HAha! SO happy.
Walked almost half of my day.
Leg damn tired & sore.
Reached home around 10.
So tired & haven 't finish my homework, so couldn't have tuition the next day.
=xxx

Nowadays is quite peaceful.
Can say that everyone is busy with their own thing thus it's peaceful.
Streaming is coming. In a few weeks' time.
Zzzzz. Very worried & scared.

Anyway, i didn't feel that irritated in class anymore.
Finally? Hahas. Opps. Damn bad. But, Ya, Hahas.
Okay luhh, i shall stop here. Going to go sleep le.

BYES!! =DD

Labels: STREAMING

yoyOYO!
Hahas. Quite long never post le.
Hmm. Still the same.
Very sian~
Band resume le!
So happy! Lols.
Still coping with school work. Plus tuition work.
Lols.

Hmm, i think i've already given it to you.
Trying to hide/run away, doesn't help in any sense.
Just once, i see you, i'll be happy like crap.
Like nothing could make me down. --
But, i doesn't want it this way.
Strongly disagree.
However, there's nothing i could do to deal with it.
I'm hopeless i shall say.
Zzzz. ~.~
Who can help me?
I need help! Sigh..

I'll paint my mood in shades of blue
Paint my soul to be with you
I'll paint the truth
To show how I feel..

Anyway, to this special someone.
If you don't like band, must well don't join.
Feeling regret? Quit la.
It's the easiest way out.
Bored? Then too bad, it's one of the process to success.

Daily routines bore me out .

Labels: Hate/Love ?

Sian. I really don't want any of this to happen.
I don't want !
But i can't seem to stop it.
I'm going crazy over this.
Trying so hard yet nothing went right.
Can't believe how happy am i when i receive it.
That happiness, can;t be described.
Oh man, i think it's getting serious.

I think i'm in.
Zzzz.

Labels: The Unstoppable One.

Hellluh! xD
Hahas.
Okay, finally a break for me.
Very tired. Physically.
Lols.
This year's POP was FUN !
Haas. For me la.
Hmm. Spent a lot of time practising the dance. Hahas
I love the dance la!
- A night to remember -
Hmm. Then nobody. Cool!
SkipSkip.
Haunted house.
It was cool and fun.
Hahas. Screamed all the way through.
Went in with dq, ks, hh & korina for the first round.
Then went in with jq, angie & korina for second round.
Lols. That day, was very tired.
Slept quite early.
I LOVE my seniors !
All the best in the future !

Hmm. Okay.
Finally, everything have come to an end.
All the sad moment, angry moment, frustrating moment, those moment that i've cried even happy times had all come to an end.
Can say my ups & downs had started to be constant.
But, of course, life is full of ups & downs.
Thanks to my beloved seniors for coming into my life & created an impact in my life.
Those memories can never to be erased. Really.
Whether is good or bad, i still love you all.someonly =)

Hmm.
To my stupid mad cow disease girl,
don't think so much okay?
俗话说船到桥头自然直.
One step each time. Take things slowly.
All can be solve one. =)
And stop crying for them or for those things.
Not worth it. =D

Labels: Move it ~

Sian.
Nowadays, keep feeling a kind of 'tight-ness' in my chest.
Like.. don't know how to describe too.
But, the feeling is no good.
The 'tight-ness' is killing me.
Literally. T.T

Very tired but still have to move on.

Labels: Lets move on.

Hmm. I think i'll post almost every month. Lols.
Quite lazy to post uhh. Lol.
Okay. Finish watching boys over flower 2days ago !!
Hahas. Is a nice show. Must watch.
I LOVE YoonJiHoo !!!
He loves JanDi a lot & keep providing help & care to her, but he doesn't want anything in return from her. (maybe no chance to ask for)
So good right?!
Everytime when he comforts JanDi when she cries, i also can feel he warmth he provides.
And he's so cute when he smile luhh. Esp after his hair cut.
I wonder if there is such person exist in reality..
I love his singer group ss501 too.
Their group sang a song - because i'm stupid. Is one of the show's soundtrack.
NICE! Must listen.
Oh, JunPyo loves JanDi a lot too uh.
He is also a very romantic guy uhh.
& he damn tall. 186. ~.~
SOYiJung, he's a handsome guy.
Most handsome among them.
Cute too. Pottery guy.
Hmm. Kept thinking about the show.
~.~ Can't seem to stop thinking.
Cannot stop thinking about JiHoo too. Opps. =x Hahas.

Okayokay, shall stop talking about BOF first. Hahas.
Hmm. My results. Totally sucks.
Drop a lot. >.< Sian luhh. T.T
Can't seem to focus this year. As things keep happening.
Very tired. Cannot focus. But manage to pull through somehow.
I bet i'll get lots of complains about me sleeping in class luhh. -.-
But! Only first period. =xxx
Somehow, i don't really feel emotions in me. Lols.
Erm. Like a dead person. All my emotions & feelings like gone. Lol..
Ahhhhh! Sian ahhhh. Don't know la.
I think i will want to go back to my old personalities.
Bo chaup. Lols. Like heck care heck care. Don't care don't care. Lol.

Ohya, band.
Hmm. Band now quite okay luhh.
Just the new members.
Okay, i'm going to say it straight.
If you want to come, come always.
If not, quit.
Don't beat around the bush.

Haiyh. Sorry to those people i wanna apologise to.. some senior
Very sorry.

Labels: No emotions?